Changes...

Well Ayden,

I really wish I had kept updating your blog...life got busy and I just kept forgetting...I wish I knew an exact timeline for the past years events and I wish that I could give exact dates, but you have been changing in the past year.

Your having trouble with large groups of people.  When we walk into a room full of people you slink back and often yell "NO......NO....NOOOOO"  

You hate to have your picture taken anymore, and often scream if I even try.  Very rarely can I get you to be excited for a picture.  I am wondering where my happy, smiling little boy has gone...I want so badly to have my goofy little friend back.

Your afraid of so much these days, the shower, the animals at the zoo,  a dog walking in front of our house, other children your age....there are others too.  Your also starting to shorten words, words that dont need to be shorter.  For example:  you started saying 'cereal' and said it great for a few weeks, then all off a sudden one day 'cereal' is now 'siree'.

You  have become violent to yourself and to others.  You will scream and kick and bang your head on the floor for no apparent reason.  You bite and hit yourself quite often.  I can not put my finger on what is going on, but something is just doesn't seem right.  I have mentioned the odd behaviors to your doctors before, but it doesn't seem to be of any concern.  I have a feeling that we are headed in the wrong direction and that something needs to be done....

Your having bowel issues, and you find it extremely stressful to even use the bathroom...we have tried laxatives but with no avail.  After talking with some friends, daddy and I have decided that it is time to try cutting Gluten and Casein from your diet.  It wont be easy because you love bread, crackers and milk...You could live on milk...I keep telling daddy that if they could find a way to put a sippy lid on the gallon of milk you would be ecstatic!  But we figure we have nothing to loose in trying.  You only had a very small amount of Gluten yesterday and none so far today.  We will be removing Casein here in the days to come. I am headed to the store now to try and find you an alternative.  I will keep your blog updated on how that goes, and if we notice any changes. I hope and pray that this will provide you some relief.

I love you baby boy, more than you will ever know!

Mommy